portland isn't treating me right these days - whiteorgreen
Aug. 23rd, 2005
02:16 pm - portland isn't treating me right these days
guys keep calling me to do things like camping for the weekend or sharing a fruit salad.
unfortunately these guys are from completely different planets than me. and even more unfortunately, the planets are the boring ones that i'm not interested in exploring.
i want them to stop calling me, but i'm afraid if they stop calling me then no one will call me.
i miss living in utah sometimes. it's been over 4 years since i moved away (i think.)
i need to meet kindred spirits here. dana is the only person i have here that i feel is from my planet. i didn't meet her here though. i met her in olympia.
the last three new people i have kissed made me not want to kiss anyone ever again.
what i'm trying to say in all of this is that i'm feeling extremely disconnected. i can't even imagine feeling connected to my family right now. so, i'm floating in space, and this is what life is probably going to be like for a long time.