i'm depressed again. this is so stupid. i would like an… - whiteorgreen
Oct. 27th, 2005
i'm depressed again. this is so stupid.
i would like an attractive man to come to my house and kiss me. then i would like to tango with him for about an hour. after that, he would kiss me again and ask if he could fold my laundry and buy me a bed. of course, i would let him do these things. when he got home from bed shopping, he would carry it to my room and make my bed with silky soft sheets and a down comforter. i would snuggle up with my stuffed bunny in the bed until the man would come back up with some hot cocoa and buttered toast. he would give me a back massage with warm oil. i would fall asleep and he would go and come back when i wake up in the morning. (or maybe he would hug me all night- it depends on how i feel.)
in the morning he would hug me when i woke up and let me cry to him about how scared i was to be alive. i would cry just enough to get it out, but not so much that i drown in it. then he would give me breakfast in bed with tea. he would read me some poems, and cuddle with me for a while longer. we would kiss each other for a while until our bodies were warm enough to get up and get dressed. he would walk me to my yoga class and meet me back at my house afterwords. i would get home and he would be in my bed. i would get in with him and he would read while i worked on sewing my quilt.
i would have to go to work at noon. there is no avoiding that (unless that man pays for all my needs and i quit my job.) after work, he would come over and cuddle with me in bed until i fell asleep.
can that happen?